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Crumbling world

When my entire world comes crumbling down.
I think to myself and begin to frown.
For every bad time there was something that made it better.
For every good time there was something that made it worse.
It never seemed to fade.
It just made me feel sad.
Sadness that to comprehend for people who haven’t felt it is near impossible. But for those who have felt this sadness that never seems to fade. Hanging over like a dark cloud.
It is the worst and its horrible.
I’m tired but no amount of sleep is going to cure this.
More often then not I wish I was dead.

I’m just a little down right now. Will pick myself back up tomorrow.

Also will be trying to do the new video soon.

Called ‘for all those struggling’ I should probably take my own advice…

Love always,
G
Xxx

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Decisions.

A time that comes in everyone’s life. Where they are no longer a child but also not ready for adulthood yet. The awkward inbetween as I call it.

You are forced to think about your future. Which most of the time I have no freaking clue. I cant even make up my mind about what I want to eat. Let alone what I want to do for the rest of my life. Or the matter of fact that I dont know if I want the rest of my life.

I want to travel and see the world but I dont like people/crowd’s and everything.
I want to be happy but at the same time I have become addicted to my sadness. The fact that I cant let it go scares me even more. Or maybe its the fact that it wont let me go… I’m full of contradictions.

Well I guess I better get back to planning for my future, or maybe I will just stick to tomorrow for now.

Sleeping update:
Insomnia is getting terrible again. I need more sleep… Around 3 to 6 hours per night im getting at the moment. No wonder im grumpy…

Mood:
Average mood this weekend. Tired and a bit low at times. Tonight is a low night.. but im staying with my grandparents.  Who always take the time to look after me…

Mask is up this weekend. Will probably be dropped tomorrow a little when I get back home. Im going to try my best to hold it together though.

Wish me luck.

PS.
Will be doing a plan of what I want to accomplish this week tomorrow. And have a few more posts coming. And writing the next video soon.

Love always,

G

Xx

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New video uploaded!

Alright, so i have uploaded an old video i made.

Its sort of a laugh, i dont know.

That shit really happens though!

Go check it out! 🙂

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XmP0ErMucUM

Dont forget to subscribe and like! 🙂

Love always,

G

xx

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Im busy, but when i look back, im not really.

It has been a rather busy week for me.

Monday- So tired couldnt get out of bed, dad yelled at me.. Yay. Then i got up went to work with him, did a little bit of study.. not much. Came home and slept. Also no appetite,

Tuesday- Monday night i took a natural sleeping pill thing, it took me so long to get to sleep and i woke up a few times. Then in the morning i felt like a train had hit me, i couldnt move or do anything, i was the most tired i have been in forever! (Not taking that shit again). Went to study group for my social interaction, which was crap.

Wednesday (today)- got up and went to study group this morning, came home and cleaned my room a little, it was a mess. Editing my video, which i will put up soon! 🙂 But now feeling shit about everything.

I got told that i cant go to group therapy so im slightly f*cked off about that.. Stupid health system.. and yeah. 

Im going to see my grandparents and mum this weekend.. Should be okay, but at least its a long weekend and monday is off! 

Sorry for not updating in a while, but i seriously have not had the time to just sit and process my thoughts. Which i will be doing this afternoon. 

Hope everyone is doing good!

Oh and if you have anything at all you want to ask me or even just want to chat:

Email: gabbywarkworth@hotmail.com

KIK: KiwiGirlForever

Skype: gab_stars

 

Love always,

G

PS.

I havent mentioned this yet, but i have had a boyfriend for 3 months and we just broke up, im going to do a post about it soon! Dont forget to follow! 🙂 

xxx

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