Im going to be doing this with 3 people this weekend who ispire me, or justplain and simple make me happy.
Give it a go, you never know, it may in fact cheer you up!
I’m so so sorry that I haven’t actually done the video yet. Or really haven’t been posting that much.
Dramas began Saturday, I got to hang with my best friend ever!! Yay 🙂 then shit went down and yeah. She is grounded and I don’t know when I will be seeing her next which is a bit shit. Oh well.
Today I got my hair done! Brown again yay!!
I don’t think I mentioned this is any posts before but I applied for a hairdressing apprenticeship, sent off a CV and cover letter and I have an interview on Tuesday!! I’m so excited I just want to be Tuesday but I’m nervous as hell! So any advice leave in comments below. I will keep you updated on how everything goes!
Maybe this is my light switch.
Because from a girl who is struggling I feel like I’m finally starting to win!
I’m finally feeling a true sense of happiness. Getting my life on track. I applied for a hairdressing apprenticeship and I didn’t want to get my hopes up too high. But it’s real, I got an interview! For Tuesday. And I just want to scream it to the world.
Maybe I can finally do something, and get on with everything. At a time where I was feeling completely hopeless this has lifted my spirits +100000!
Hope is somewhere. Just hold on.
It does get better take it from a girl who has struggled for so long, but finally starting to win.
Video has everything sorted all I need to do now is record and edit! So should hopefully be up by Tuesday! Before my interview.
Don’t forget to smile, and if someone hasn’t told you today, you are doing a freaking awesome job, so hang in there!
When my entire world comes crumbling down.
I think to myself and begin to frown.
For every bad time there was something that made it better.
For every good time there was something that made it worse.
It never seemed to fade.
It just made me feel sad.
Sadness that to comprehend for people who haven’t felt it is near impossible. But for those who have felt this sadness that never seems to fade. Hanging over like a dark cloud.
It is the worst and its horrible.
I’m tired but no amount of sleep is going to cure this.
More often then not I wish I was dead.
I’m just a little down right now. Will pick myself back up tomorrow.
Also will be trying to do the new video soon.
Called ‘for all those struggling’ I should probably take my own advice…
Whether I’m awake or asleep I’m always dreaming. My mind is pondering things that probably may not happen. Coming up with ideas that I will never have the confidence to do. At hats when I realise that I’m to stuck in my dreamworld to even notice what is really happening in my reality.
whether it be ignoring someone non intentionally. Or having no ability to breathe because of panic attacks which end up sending me into tears which can not be controlled.
i need a magic pill that will make me less tired, because no amount of sleep will ever be enough to cure my tiredness. Where do I turn to find a pill so amazing.. If I follow Alice down that hole and find my wonderland? Or fly out the window with Peter Pan to find myself as a child where everything seemed possible and I had no fear, regrets and instead high self esteem and the will to find anything possible.
when I dream, it’s not often with my eyes closed, instead with them open. Having control over a made up world is much easier then facing this big ugly world.
My 3 friends I have, k, t and z. they mean the world to me. Through all my ups and downs they have been there to make me smile, whether it be a simple but loving note, a block of chocolate or a walk along the beach. The only people who can bring the reality back to me.
who make me question even just for a second,
is the world really such a terrible place?
My mood over the past couple of days has been changing. From I’m so angry I could kill someone to crying because I’m falling apart.
Trying to hold on to whatever hope I can find.