A time that comes in everyone’s life. Where they are no longer a child but also not ready for adulthood yet. The awkward inbetween as I call it.
You are forced to think about your future. Which most of the time I have no freaking clue. I cant even make up my mind about what I want to eat. Let alone what I want to do for the rest of my life. Or the matter of fact that I dont know if I want the rest of my life.
I want to travel and see the world but I dont like people/crowd’s and everything.
I want to be happy but at the same time I have become addicted to my sadness. The fact that I cant let it go scares me even more. Or maybe its the fact that it wont let me go… I’m full of contradictions.
Well I guess I better get back to planning for my future, or maybe I will just stick to tomorrow for now.
Insomnia is getting terrible again. I need more sleep… Around 3 to 6 hours per night im getting at the moment. No wonder im grumpy…
Average mood this weekend. Tired and a bit low at times. Tonight is a low night.. but im staying with my grandparents. Who always take the time to look after me…
Mask is up this weekend. Will probably be dropped tomorrow a little when I get back home. Im going to try my best to hold it together though.
Wish me luck.
Will be doing a plan of what I want to accomplish this week tomorrow. And have a few more posts coming. And writing the next video soon.